Continued...A terrible month of March

Well we found out this morning from our family Doctor that Brian's L5 is blown and thats why the disk is putting alot of pressure on his nerves. He is scheduled to meet with Dr.Soo tomorrow afternoon for surgery. I am happy to hear from our Doctor that he wont to have surgery again later [hopefully]. Our family Doctor finally put him on some good medicine to ease up the serve pain he was having in his right leg. We are told it can take up to 6 weeks to a year for his back to fully heal but probably in 2 weeks he will be fine. I have enjoyed him being home with us. I got to do alot of things that needed to be done,Like my hearing test to get hearing aids finally after 7 years and I am having surgery done on my mouth as well. So its been nice to have him around accept we all have been losing so much sleep lol. I am hoping we will have baby girl back on her sleeping schedule.

Stacy & Danny [our wonderful next door neighbor] has supported us so much,They are great best friends we have ever had besides my bestie Tifferz =]. Seems like they are the only one who is supporting our needs and they are always there whenever we need to talk about whatever. Danny seems like he knows the answer to anything I ask. We are so grateful for them both. I am hoping once Brian's surgery goes good as planned we will be able to take them out to dinner to show them both how much we really do love them and thankful for them. I just wish our families would understand and support us during this time but I am probably the blame for not coming around due to the fact our families are dysfunctional lol.

I will post more once we find out whats going on tomorrow afternoon.

A terrible month of March

Well March sucks really bad for my husband...He usually have problems with his lower back 3 times a year but apparently this time its really bad. He was told by 3 different doctors that his hernia disk is erupted big time. We have been fighting all the doctors for answers til he finally went to Moore hostipal last Saturday morning when he finally couldnt walk without a fucking cane.He is literly fucked up on his right side.Thank God he finally got our family doctor authorizes for a MRI this morning @ 11:45am  at Southwest Medical hostipal. Hopefully they will fix him. I will keep everyone posted.All I know is he is tired of taking all these damn drugs and still being in pain.
I pray that he doesnt have to have surgery unless its needed! Anyways I will blog tonight after I know more later about the MRI.

Something I want my little loves to know

I want to be remembered as the one who always smile

even when her heart is broken, and the one who always

brighten up your day even when she couldnt brighten up her own. 

Happy Birthday to My Husband!

As the years passes us. I wanted to take the time to write this for him.

I love him so much,I realize I cant live without him. He's the BEST man I have ever have.

So I wanted to share the poem I have written for him & Hope you all see how lucky I am to have

him in my live =]

I want you with a passion.

I have never felt this way.

I crave you every second,

Every hour of my day.

I love you like no other has

or will ever again.

My heart is set alight.

At the mention of your name.

I hunger for your kisses.

Your taste,Your touch

and the warmth of your skin.

How I need it so much.

I love how you look 

When you're looking at me.

You light up my life.

You are all that I see.

You intoxicate me

with your smile and your love

For how precious you are.

You are all that I really love.

Happy 35th Birthday babe,

I love you then,I still love you now.You are the reason I am still around and fighting for what's rightfully mine =]

His beautiful heart

I lay my head on his chest.
I hear his heart beating.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I start to relax.
I listen to his heart beating.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I smile to myself.
I start to get lost in the beats of his heart.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

My other hand caresses his chest.
The world melts away around me.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I become transfixed on the sound of his heart.
All I can hear is…
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I melt into him.
He is mine, I am his.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

He caresses my arm.
Pulls me in closer to him.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

My eyes are closed.
All I hear is…
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

He talks to me.
I don’t respond.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I am gone.
No thinking.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

He thinks I am sleeping.
But I am lost in his heart beats.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I am at peace.
I am safe.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

Safe in his arms.
Safe in his heart beats.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

We are one.
All I can hear is…
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I am at rest.
I am lost in his heart beats.
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump.

I never want to leave his arms.
All I want to hear is…
Thump-thump, Thump-thump, Thump-thump. 

I Love Only You!

I never really knew you You were just another friend But when I got to know you, I let my heart unbend. I couldn't help past memories that would only make me cry I had to forget my first love and give love another try So I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go I love you more than anyone I just had to let you know And if you ever wonder why I don't know what I'll say But I'll never stop loving you each and every day My feelings for you will never change Just know my feelings are true Just remember one thing I Love Only You! written by Angela Walley

Fucking Perfect by Pink

Made a wrong turn, once or twice 
Dug my way out, blood and fire 
Bad decisions, that's alright 
Welcome to my silly life 
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood 
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down 
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated 
Look, I'm still around 

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than, less than perfect 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 
You are perfect to me! 

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong 
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead 
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it! 
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game 
It's enough! I've done all I can think of 
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same 

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than, less than perfect 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 

You are perfect to me 

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear 
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer 
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time 
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere 
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair 
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time 
Why do we do that? Why do I do that? 

Why do I do that? 

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby! 
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than, less than perfect 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel 
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me 
You're perfect, you're perfect to me! 
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing 
You are perfect to me