~ My wedding vows I wrote to Brian ~

Ever since I was young,I never really understood anything about the world,and I never understood anything that happen in my life.The only thing that ever made sense was you,and how I felt about you.That's all I've ever want and that's enough for me for the rest of my life.

Happily Married since - 02/18/2007

101 ways to annoy people...

101 Ways To Annoy People

1. Sing the Batman theme incessantly.

2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sensual massage."

3. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go."

4. Learn Morse code, and have conversations with friends in public consisting entirely of "Beeeep Bip Bip Beeep Bip..."

5. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.

6. Amuse yourself for endless hours by hooking a camcorder to your TV and then pointing it at the screen. <

7. Speak only in a "robot" voice.

8. Push all the flat Lego pieces together tightly.

9. Start each meal by conspicuously licking all your food, and announce that this is so no one will "swipe your grub".

10. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 98 copies.

11. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.

12. Sniffle incessantly.

13. Leave your turn signal on for fifty miles.

14. Name your dog "Dog." 15. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."

16. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what YOU think."

17. Claim that you must always wear a bicycle helmet as part of your "astronaut training."

18. Declare your apartment an independent nation, and sue your neighbors upstairs for "violating your airspace".

19. Forget the punchline to a long joke, but assure the listener it was a "real hoot."

20. Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with Lysol.

21. Practice making fax and modem noises.

22. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc:" them to your boss.

23. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.

24. Invent nonsense computer jargon in conversations, and see if people play along to avoid the appearance of ignorance.

25. Erect an elaborate network of ropes in your backyard, and tell the neighbors you are a "spider person."

26. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with the prophesy."

27. Wear a special hip holster for your

remote control.

28. Do not add any inflection to the end of your sentences, producing awkward silences with the impression that you'll be saying more any moment.

29. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears.

30. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.

31. Give a play-by-play account of a persons every action in a nasal Howard Cosell voice.

32. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.

33. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."

34. Drum on every available surface.

35. Staple papers in the middle of the page.

36. Ask 1-800 operators for dates.

37. Produce a rental video consisting entirely of dire FBI copyright warnings.

38. Sew anti-theft detector strips

into peoples backpacks.

39. Hide dairy products in inaccessible places.

40. Write the surprise ending to a novel on its first page.

41. Set alarms for random times.

42. Order a side of pork rinds with your filet mignon.

43. Instead of Gallo, serve Night Train next Thanksgiving.

44. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a "croaking" noise.

45. Honk and wave to strangers.

46. Dress only in clothes colored Hunters Orange.

47. Change channels five minutes before the end of every show.

48. Tape pieces of "Sweating to the Oldies" over climactic parts of rental movies.

49. Wear your pants backwards.

50. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints by the cash register.

51. Begin all your sentences with "ooh la la!"

52. ONLY TYPE IN UPPERCASE.

53. only type in lowercase.

54. dont use any punctuation either

55. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.

56. Pay for your dinner with pennies.

57. Tie jingle bells to all your clothes.

58. Repeat everything someone says, as a question.

59. Write "X - BURIED TREASURE" in random spots on all of someone's roadmaps.

60. Inform everyone you meet of your personal Kennedy assassination/UFO/ O.J Simpson conspiracy theories.

61. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times: "Do you hear that?" "What?" "Never mind, its gone now."

62. Light road flares on a birthday cake.

63. Wander around a restaurant, asking other diners for their parsley.

64. Leave tips in Bolivian currency.

65. Demand that everyone address you as "Conquistador."

66. At the laundromat, use one dryer for each of your socks.

67. When Christmas caroling, sing "Jingle Bells, Batman smells" until physically restrained.

68. Wear a cape that says "Magnificent One."

69. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.

70. Stand over someone's shoulder, mumbling, as they read.

71. Pretend your computer's mouse is a CB radio, and talk to it.

72. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce "no, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.

73. Drive half a block.

74. Inform others that they exist only in your imagination.

75. Ask people what gender they are.

76. Lick the filling out of all the Oreos, and place the cookie parts back.

77. Cultivate a Norwegian accent. If Norwegian, affect a Southern drawl.

78. Routinely handcuff yourself to furniture, informing the curious that you don't want to fall off "in case the big one comes".

79. Deliberately hum songs that will remain lodged in co-workers brains, such as "Feliz Navidad", the Archies "Sugar" or the Mr. Rogers theme song.

80. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head. like a parakeet.

81. Lie obviously about trivial things such as the time of day.

82. Leave your Christmas lights up and lit until September.

83. Change your name to "AaJohn Aaaaasmith" for the great glory of being first in the phone book. Claim it's a Hawaiian name, and demand that people pronounce each "a."

84. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.

85. Chew on pens that you've borrowed.

86. Wear a LOT of cologne.

87. Listen to 33rpm records at 45rpm speed, and claim the faster speed is necessary because of your "superior mental processing."

88. Sing along at the opera.

89. Mow your lawn with scissors.

90. At a golf tournament, chant "swing-batabatabata-suhWING-batter!"

91. Ask the waitress for an extra seat for your "imaginary friend."

92. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.

93. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions, and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something

about "psychological profiles."

94. Stare at static on the TV and claim you can see a "magic picture."

95. Select the same song on the jukebox fifty times.

96. Never make eye contact.

97. Never break eye contact.

98. Construct elaborate "crop circles" in your front lawn.

99. Construct your own pretend "tricorder," and "scan" people with it, announcing the results.

100. Make appointments for the 31st of September.

101. Invite lots of people to other people's parties.

Fluffy

I honestly can say I have never ever loved a dog like I deeply love my Shih Tzu.He is the MOST PERFECT thing in this world [besides my daughter & husband].Just within hours he has become physically attach to me. I love him so much.He is like a tiny newborn all over again. My husband doesnt think I will win this over.He is in for a ride,Cuz there's no doubt in my mind Fluffy will be going anywhere anytime any soon.Still trying to potty train him but he has allergies really bad so I got to stick with the puppy pads til we can find a way he will enjoy the out door life. So far everything is perfect about him.Here's his picture. I got him Jan 21.11 

[Mommy's little man,Fluffy]

The Unknown.

 your little boy cries too much. my littlle boy makes no sound.your little boy sleeps warm in his crib,my little boy lies cold in his grave. your little boy woke up today,my little boy never will.your little boy laughs and plays,my little boy lays still.your little boy makes you proud,just as proud as mine,cuz while your little boy learns to walk,my little boy can fly ♥ ~Unknown~

My beautiful baby boy.

My husband finally got me a Shih Tzu pup.

He is so perfect!!

His name is Fluffy & he's only 8 weeks old.

One wish,please?!?

Everytime I turn around I hearing or seeing friends & family

that are PREGNANT! I wanna be pregnant too damnit.

Been trying for the last freaking 3 years. So I am hoping this month is my month.

If not then I know there's something wrong with my body :(

Anyways I wanted to bitch!

GOD PLEASE iF YOU'RE READiNG THiS....

PLEASE GRANT ME ONE WiSH TO HAVE A FULL TERM PREGNANCY!

i AM TiRED OF GETTiNG PREGNANT & THEN LOSiNG THE DAMN THiNG.

PUH-LEASEEEE?!?

B.E.A.U.T.i.F.U.L.

When you were in trouble that crooked smile,Could melt my heart of stone,Now look at you,I've must of turned around and you've almost of grown.

emotional mess

Not sure where to start with this. Seems like things have changed since Dec 21st when Weston jumped my husband & that finally drew the last straw between a brother & a sister. Last time I talked to him is on Christmas evening when I yelled at him to stop calling me period. Seems like everyone is pissed cuz we pressed charges on him and who gives a fuck if he could of KiLLED Brian. not only that he stood there and done that shit in front of our baby girl,all I could hear was her screaming and crying "My Daddy" I knew right then and there I had to stop choking my brother and call for help but he ran off like a little pussy. My husband laid there looking like he was lifeless and was rushed to the hostipal. Yea that night is like a flash back and I dont tell Brian this stuff. I am lucky enough to still have him here with us,His insurance money is not enough to replace him. I honestly love him for who is he. I cant bare living this fucking life without him.

Christmas day was very nice,I spent the whole day with my loves and our baby loved all of her presents.

We cook up some turkey in the slow cooker. Then we all went over to my parents the next day to open more presents from Santa. Everything went very well,everyone got along surprisely and was told that Kyle and his girl are pregnant and everyone wasnt mad about that like they were when I told them I was pregnant with Breanna.

Everyone barely spoke to Brian & I the whole time, awkward visit tho. So we all came back home and then Steve came over. I was pretty much sick with the sinus infection. Had a great time with Steve with us for a couple of days. New Year eve rolls by and nobody bothered calling us so we made plans with our neighbor and had a wonderful time with them. Got drunk and played Rock Band all night long til about 5am lol.

Pretty much I am losing my family slowly. I guess we arent important as much as Layla is. So we tend to keep to ourselves. I met a great friend thru one of Brian's co worker. They are wonderful people. I have been hanging out with her for the last week. Beautiful kids and Breanna always seem to have a good time with them. I tried calling my mom last night to tell her what was going on with Krista bitch. But she didnt have time for me or want to listen so its whatever. I deleted alot of people from my facebook, Seems like everyone is drifting away from me not sure why or what for. Pretty sure cuz of Brian but I really dont care if anybody likes him.

Yesterday morning little miss dare devil had her dresser & tv fall on top of her. Yea she thought she would climb her dresser to change her movie and then it all fall on top of her but she didnt break anything accept she got a bruise on her left ear. Then this morning she got mad about something and then went to the bathroom and locked herself in there knowing the door was gonna keep her in there cuz its was going out or something

But she couldnt get it to unlock so we picked the lock,nothing worked. So after about 20 times of kicking the door Brian rammed himself into the door and finally broke the damn thing open to get her out LOL.

But we took the door from the downstairs closet and put it back on the bathroom.

Daddy saved the day as usual. I swear that child is gonna give us a heart attack soon!

We thought the terrible twos were gone but seems like she doesnt want to appreciate anything in this house.

Far as Brian & I marriage goes......

Things are actually better,I have had the best 10 days with him being off of work due to the holidays and much needed time together and they were prefect and brought us even closer and much stronger. I am even more in love with him then I was 3 years ago. I am realizing now just how important I am to him. He does everything and anything for me & bre but mostly for me. Its been almost 4 years since we have been married and almost 6 years since we have been together and I dont think I could trade him for another man. He' mean the world to me. When we get along and actually agree on things,life is better lol. He may not be prefect,I am ok with that. everyone is entitle to make mistakes. we all learn from them someway.

I am proud to say that I am taking much better care of myself,no I didnt drop the ciggerattes.

I am losing weight,I started in November I believe. I have lost a total of 13lbs. I was 213 now I am down to 199lbs :) I am hoping to get to 190 by my birthday [31st of January].

Trying to get pregnant again before I give up totally, Hoping GOD will grant me this one wish this year.

WOW I wrote alot. I had to get some stuff off of my chest there lol.

well until next time!

Our second first kiss

We dwell on the past, while living the present
But I admit, the past was unpleasant
Full of ups and downs, less pleasure more pain
We wished for the sun, but only got rain
We both made mistakes, put pain in our hearts
But here we are again, promising to never part
Counting our blessings and letting go of the past
Starting all over and making it last
Feelings and memories flow deep in my mind
Of those days our love was genuine and kind
Holding you close, feeling your skin
You look into my eyes and make my head spin
Those feelings are back, but stronger than ever
I know you're the one I wanna hold on to forever
We both smile again, nothing's better than this
Kissing you again was like our second first kiss.

You're never alone

Why, as the world spins, do I stand?
Still as the leaves, when there is no wind,
Why does it hurt so much?
When everything you believe in, feels right,
Why am I falling?
When everything around me is rising with the sun,
Why look for pain?
When there is none,
Is heaven a place on Earth?
Or does it come from the heart,
Every breath I take, is another fire, burning up inside,
I know that sometimes the truth hurts, but don’t ever let it slide.
Am I the only one, who takes pride in the little things?
The colour of the sky at dawn,
The feeling, knowing you’ve got something to give,
Even though they spit in your fire,
The freedom to run the waves, whenever the time is right,
The joy, of taking pride in who you are,
Even though they try and scar,
The flame of the candle, dancing in the window pane,
You are fulfilled; you have nothing more to gain.
Is there another part of me?
A part I do not know,
Whatever the future holds, I cannot tell yet,
But I can now see the glow,
A shimmer of light,
A glimmer of hope,
In everything I do.
Feel every moment you live,
For you do not know,
When the sun will stop rising,
Become who you were born to be,
For everyone is here for a reason,
Discover the meaning of life,
You will know when you’ve found it,
The warm heart, and sound of tiny toes,
Pitt-pattering on the floor,
The sound of giggling and laughter,
Where there was none before.
Feel love, when you give,
Not only when you get,
I ask for one thing,
Don’t leave this world yet,
You have many more things to discover,
The light is upon you,
And remember…
You’re never alone.

Girlie Wisdom!

1. A friend of mine confused her Valium with her birth control pills.. she has 14 kids but doesn't really care..

2. One of life's mysteries is how a 2-pound box of chocolates can make a woman gain 5 lbs.

3. My mind not only wanders, it sometimes leaves completely.

4. The best way to forget your troubles is to wear tight shoes.

5. The nice part about living in a small town is that when you don't know what you are doing, someone else does.

6. The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight because by then, your body and your fat are really good friends.

7. Just when I was getting used to yesterday, along came today.

8. Sometimes I think I understand everything, and then I regain consciousness.

9. I gave up jogging for my health when my thighs kept rubbing together and setting fire to my knickers'.

10. Amazing! You hang something in your closet for a while and it shrinks 2 sizes!

11. Skinny people irritate me! Especially when they say things like...'You know sometimes I forget to eat!' .....Now I've forgotten my address, my mother's maiden name and my keys, but I have never forgotten to eat. You have to be a special kind of stupid to forget to eat!

12. The trouble with some women is that they get all excited about nothing and then they marry him.

13. I read this article that said the typical symptoms of stress are eating too much, impulse buying, and driving too fast. Are they kidding? That's my idea of a perfect day! 

Its a brand New Year!!

Damn I cant believe 2010 went back so fast...

But I am happy that we all get a new chance to start a new year the better way?!?

Well I have plans & goals for myself & my family.

I have already lost 13 lbs within a month.

Baby girl has accomplished ALOT last year,

potty trained,binkie free & even sleeps in her own room :D

Husband was off for almost 2 weeks due to domestic violence & abuse

[NOT BY ME!!] & due to Christmas & New Year's Eve.

I rather not go into details about what happen with my husband.

All I know is that Breanna & I will NOT being seeing him for a long time!!

Anyways I am hoping this year will be MUCH BETTER.

Until tomorrow,Stay warm & Happy New Year<3